Being at a loss for words is not familiar territory for me. But that is where I am today. Ryan's cancer is back.
I am living my life like any other day, but there is a disconnect from reality. There is a thickness in the air at my house. You can feel it. I look at Seth and I know he can feel it.
I am searching for understanding and coming up short. I am praying and crying and hoping and wishing I could ease the hurt, or at least hug my friends.
Did we just get lazy, Team Ryan? Are we not praying hard enough since he went in to remission? We need to be vigilant again. Ryan needs us. Margie needs us. Hallie needs us. Max needs us.
Please pray for Ryan. Not just for healing, but also for the strength to get back in the fight.
I'm putting back up my campaign posters.
WE BELIEVE: TEAM RYAN 2010
Second Week of School
3 years ago
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I had that heavy thick feeling as I read that email from Margie as well. I couldn't believe it. I feel so much love for them and I don't know them nearly as well as you do. I know this must be so hard on you guys as you are so close. Let me know if I can do anything for you too.
You know it's just one of those trials that happens with or without prayers. Just because we weren't still constantly wrapped up about the Hess' and their fight doesn't mean it's the reason why his cancer came back. Don't beat yourself up Julie. Prayers help us deal with trials not take them away. I admire your compassion, I find it very hard to emotionally relate to somebody's hardships, and even my own, I seem to put up the good old wall. I was shocked too when I saw the email. It hasn't been very long at all. But I am sure with everyone's support the Hess' can get through it especially since they know what to expect. Again I appreciate your compassionate nature :)
Melanie, I am not really blaming all of us for slacking off in our prayers. I know we have all still been praying and that sometimes prayers are not answered in the ways we hope they will be. I guess I was just saying that to rally the troops for another push for Team Ryan. Maybe my words just came out all wrong. I told you I was struggling for words today. I wasn't trying to place guilt or blame anywhere. One thing we know is that stuff happens, but that God is over all. We have watched him strenthen and carry the Hesses, and I trust them to His care. I am so grateful that no one is dependant on my prayers and my faith. There is a plan that is bigger than any of us, but prayer is real, and I still say we keep praying. Thanks for your kind words on your blog today too Melanie.
And Cheryl, thanks for thinking of us. I think we all feel a bit heart broken, but they've beat this once. So we will pray hard, have faith, and turn this over to God. I just wish Ryan didn't have to suffer all over again.
It sounds so cheesy to say, but my heart has just been heavy since I heard the news. But, I also know that that's not going to help anything, and I just hope they know we are all here to help (at least emotionally) support them through this next battle. Go team!
it seems so unreal... i keep thinking, not real, not real. prayers from here to there for their strength
I don't know them, but have followed Ryan's story. So today (Fast Sunday) has been been for Ryan, another good ole Wyoming boy. Our thoughts and prayers are with him and his family, as well as with you guys who are friends. It is so difficult to put everything in our Father's hands. Most of us want to be in control. I hope you will both feel His love and peace, even when all you want to do is scream.
Oh Julie, I'm so sorry. They just seem like such a sweet little family. It hits so close to home when they are young like this. I can understand why this would be so overwhelming. I'll be praying for them.
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